WARNING: rather graphic, potential TMI.
My remembered dreams lately have been far more often than is usual for me. Maybe it’s the good influences of Z and her incredible dream recall. Before her, it was Sus and her movie-style, long and involved dreams that amazed me.
In my own dreamworld, I don’t remember the plots, or even overarching story points. I remember snippets, fine details. This isn’t all that surprising as that is, in part, how I remember waking life as well. For some time now, I’ve been vexed by not remembering story dreams, especially sexual dreams. That I usually remember only stress-dreams is unfair. Sex dreams are the most guilt-free and fun dreams, but I wake up vaguely confused, knowing something happened in my mind, but not being able to remember anything. But today’s dreams are neither of of those flavors, and I can’t recall having anything like it before. This preamble is just to settle myself into the somewhat disturbing and confusing stuff below.
This morning the dreams were very bodily, but not sexy at all. Actually pretty gory. There wasn’t any violence, just blood. One of the dreams had to do with me finding some metal point in the top of my right thigh. I picked at it, and found it was an incredibly tiny nut on a screw. I got the nut off, dug enough to open out and find the surprisingly long screw, opened up further and found a tube that was held in place by the screw and nut. None of this was painful. The double-walled, clear, heavy-plastic tube was over an inch in diameter, maybe three inches long. It left a perfect and rather clean hole into my leg, which I found fascinating and not gross. The tube itself had blood and bits in it. Clearly, something was amiss in my tube and it shouldn’t be that way. Not that it had a purpose I understood, but I knew that it wasn’t working right. So I’ve got this messy tube-thing, a hole in the middle my leg (in regular life, there would be bone clearly visible, but not so in the dream), and I come to find that others have these tubes in their legs as well. I’m told theirs are all clear and working fine, so the nut doesn’t show on the skin. I guess mine knew it was messed up and was pushing up out.
The other dream was far more icky. I use NuvaRing, and in the dream, upon removing it, it was seriously nasty. There were rather beautiful red crystalline forms closing much of the oblonged ring, as well as puffy polyps around the outside, all of this covered in gloopy blood. I studied it for awhile, trying to figure it out, what was wrong with it. I was neither in pain or terribly disgusted, but I think I could taste blood in my mouth, which happens every time I encounter an injury in waking life as well.
In both dreams, I was in my own body. Usually I don’t dream of people at all, much less myself. Also in both dreams there was a device that had gone wrong. My body was fine, dealing with whatever it was by rejecting the problem device, and I didn’t feel that I was ill in either case. Neither were nightmares or even stress-dreams. Anyone for some pop-psychological analysis?